La dolce far niente

Clichéd as it may seem, it all began with the simple reading of a book.

“The Power” by Rhonda Byrne is only 247 pages long, but with the turn of every page I was overwhelmed with the simplicity yet power of the words written so beautifully. It doesn’t require any great spirituality or understanding of highly complex literature. It’s just as easy as reading a fairy tale written for little children, perhaps simpler.

We spend so much time overcomplicating things and surrounding ourselves with these unimaginable expectations that we’ve completely forgotten how to just BE. I mean really, wantonly, forgetting about all the annoyances, problems, worries and assignments looming over us and just taking a colossal breath of fresh air, mimicking the simple joys we used to experience as kids. I remember when I was a kid swimming used to make my day; no in fact, it would make my entire week! And to even think about going for a swim now involves tedious amounts of preparation!

So for the first time in what seemed like years, I took a 90 minute long shower, lit some candles, put on some incredibly loud music and just, excuse my language, CALMED THE F*CK DOWN!

And it felt amazing! Ever since I could remember I had always had people around me! My boyfriend(s) or my friends and whatever little time I did spend on my own, I would be so restless almost within minutes of any solitude, I would call someone over or talk to them on the phone. I had never really just been by myself.

And so it started. I spent a week re-watching all of my favorite movies! I started with The Notebook of course and yes, if you’re thinking she’s one of those girls who loves chick flicks and sappy romances and really does believe that fairy tales come true, you are absolutely right!

It then went into a whole array of really cheesy and happy movies along with a few animated all time hits.

Finally, the last one I watched just two nights ago was, wait for it………………..

Eat Pray Love. And surprisingly enough, it was the first time I had ever watched the movie! It was amazing. And thus begins my new zen way of life. I had never been the easiest person to understand but I finally felt like I started to make sense, not to anyone else, but myself! There are so many causes for this fabulous almost epiphany if you will but mainly the greatest thing I’ve discovered in the last couple of days is this…

"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot